I don't even know what to title this one....

I have to get this out somewhere....

I have been contemplating temple marriage lately.  I have been doing so for many reasons: seeing the blessings that Neal and I have received because of our choice to be married in the temple, the Denver Temple matron's death and how comforting it must be for her family to have those blessings, people that I care about making decisions that are not leading them to a temple marriage, etc.

What I have decided: people choosing to not receive temple blessings makes me really sad.  These decisions make me sad especially after feeling the blessings in my life.  How can someone who's done amazing things in the Gospel, and say they know it is true, just act like it doesn't matter anymore?  Especially when they love a person so much, they truly WANT to be with them forever.  I just don't understand.  I also don't understand how something can literally be a part of you, but you don't care if the person you marry feels it is as big of a part of them?  I guess the answer is: you don't.  I have found that the saying "A woman should be so lost in God that a man needs to seek God to find her" (and vice versa) to be true.  At least it should be, right?

I don't know.  I'm just sad about it I guess...